TEN YEARS is a long time!

Ten Years is a long time but to me it seems like yesterday you just passed away!  I think about all the good times we had - partying, drinking, clubbing and sometimes just sitting on the bench hanging out.  We talked about where we would be when we were old and gray, watching our grandchildren play.  Having cocktails on your front porch with that white picket fence you wanted.  Reminiscing about the old dayz in the projects talking about everyone and snappin' on them.  And just falling out laughing over the silliness.  We had plans together - sisters forever.  We still are sisters, but in a different forever.  

I do not think that ANYONE can realize the turmoil I am in; I used to be in utter bitterness.  I even resented certain people who were still alive and could have taken your place.  I do not think like that anymore nor am I bitter.  I learned not to question GOD and embrace his wrath.  I mean we are Christians, isn't that what we are taught - to fear GOD and His wrath?!

I have always prayed for your soul, even though I knew you were in the Choir of Angels.  As a Catholic, we pray Rosaries for the Dead who can no longer pray for themselves.  I always thought it was too comfort us and to somehow  maintain our Faith during grief.  As I continued to search for answers and possible reasons, my Faith did become stronger and I no longer question GOD!  And then I realized, it might be possible that your soul was suffering too.  So last year in July I made a promise to myself to pray a rosary every morning for you and all our deceased relatives and friends, and even our ancestors.  

Then I received an answer this morning for a question I was yearning to know, from a person I least suspected to receive it from.  

The message was clear:  " I'm her Guardian Angel and she (Lina) is with me "  ... 

( I will continue to pray my Rosaries everyday!  I am no longer full of questions nor resentful - but at peace with myself and God; and I am no longer tormented because I know for sure where you are,

 perhaps where you belonged all the time ) ...